wElcOmE All . . . . .

Hey there , welcome all to my "space"
mind my 'blogging skills' as im relatively new 2 the scene ( yea , i noe ur thinking :NOOB )
it's okay u noe . . .

So 2 kick things off , i was squandering 4 advice on how 2 start dis blog , n sme were like

"write a poem"
"comment on a song"
"review a movie"

basically , i thing ill jus enlighten u with my rather simple principles

( Yes , it's very important )
through these words

What you need to do is be thankful

For the life that you got

You know what I'm sayin'.
Stop lookin' at what you ain't got and start bein' thankful for what you do got

Nevermind what haters say , Ignore em 'til they fade away
Amazing they ungreatful after all the game I gave away
Safe to say I paid the way for you cats to get paid today
You'd still be wasting days awayif i had I never saved the day
Consider them my protégé , homage I think they should pay
Instead of being gracious , they violate in a major way
I never been a hater still I love them in a crazy way
Some say they sold ya and no they couldn't even work on Labor day
It aint that they black or white
Their hands in areas the shades of grey
I'm West side anyway , even if I left today and stayed away

Some move away to make a way , not move away cause they afraid
I brought back to the crib and all you ever did was take away
I pray for patience but they make me want to melt their face away
Like I once made them spray
Now I could make em put the k's away
Been thuggin' all my life , Can't say I don't deserve to take a break
Your would rather see me catch a case and watch my future fade away

I'm the opposite of moderate
Immaculately polished with the spirit of a hustler
And the swagger of a college kid
Allergic to the counterfeit
Impartial to the politics
Articulate but still I'll grab a hater by the collar quick
Whoever's having problems with their record sales , just holla 'tip
If that don't work and all else fails then turn around and follow 'tip
I got love for the game but I'm not in love with all of it
Could do without the fame
Rappers nowadays are comically
The hootin' and the hollerin' back and forth with the arguing
Where you from, who you know what you make and what kind of car you in
Seems as though you lost sight of whats important when depositing them checksInto your bank account
And you up out of poverty , Your values is in disarray
Prioritizing horribly , Unhappy with the riches , Cause you piss poor morally
Ignoring all prior advice and fore warning
We're mighty full of ourselves all of a sudden . Aren't we??

- Clifford Joseph Harris Jr

What sets me apart ??
here's a short insight :

there is a part of me
that feels I am different from everyone else
something that I can't quite see,
something that I can't quite feel,
something so unreal.

but this 'thing' is always there,
this 'thing' with others,
I will never share.

so I push it to the back of my mind,
all the thoughts , hide behind.
sometimes, when I have almost forgotten,
it comes back with such ferocity,
angry and unforgiving.

i do feel lost and sad at times,
whatever caused this feeling
must have been so horrible and bad.

a lost memory or something,
I'll never know,
whatever it is,
i know for sure,
i can never let this feeling show or let it go.

and so i lay in the SILENCE . . . .